IS THIS A CURSE?
An incident happened to me last week which me to reminisce my life history so far and now I have realised that something is wrong with me.
A force is working against my progress in life and am really depressed. You know when something occur more than once, we say it is mere coincidence. But when that same thing kept repeating over and over, then something is wrong somewhere.
I am a 23yrs old lady. I come from an average family. My parents are struggling to ensure that my siblings and I be educated. Thank God my elder sister is now a graduate but no job yet. I am the most brilliant amongst them. My problem started when I finished secondary school.
The struggle to gain admission is a story for another day. When I was eventually admitted, this force came again to stop my progress. I was working then so I managed to pay acceptance but could not pay school fees. I was almost begging on the street but to God be the glory help came three days to the deadline. I had the worst school experience, hunger, I slept in classroom for one semester because I couldn't afford to pay for accommodation.
During every exams, I always experience near miss accident. When it is time to pay for school charges, my family ll be so broke that feeding ll become a problem. I never buy textbooks because I ll never be able to afford it. During my IT period, I was almost killed by trailer on my way to submit my logbook for signing at ring road Ibadan.
During my 200l I fend for myself for a whole year because my dad had an accident and lost his car when he was struggling to pay my fees. My two younger siblings are secondary school drop outs. They are now in the village learning a skill.
My mum ran away to the village in 2015 when the people she borrowed money from to train us in pay my school fees impounded her shop and everything inside. Ever since then I have been the one fending for myself, I do night shift at a bakery and the humiliation from the bakery boys is unimaginable.
I stopped calling home because if I do my Mum ll tell me to drop out and join her in the village. My once upon a time lovely and beautiful mother is now a firewood seller in the village. The bakery is my home.
The danger of rape by sleeping in the midst of bad boys is there. Stella, is it a crime to wish to be educated. I am in my final year now with less than six months to round up and I have started experiencing worst. Night mares every night, disappointment, unfulfilled promises, Unimaginable hardships .
I really need help on what to do to stop this force that is always hindering my success. Pls forgive any typo error. Its really urgent cos am battling with depression. I reject failure in my life. Amen.
A force is working against my progress in life and am really depressed. You know when something occur more than once, we say it is mere coincidence. But when that same thing kept repeating over and over, then something is wrong somewhere.
I am a 23yrs old lady. I come from an average family. My parents are struggling to ensure that my siblings and I be educated. Thank God my elder sister is now a graduate but no job yet. I am the most brilliant amongst them. My problem started when I finished secondary school.
The struggle to gain admission is a story for another day. When I was eventually admitted, this force came again to stop my progress. I was working then so I managed to pay acceptance but could not pay school fees. I was almost begging on the street but to God be the glory help came three days to the deadline. I had the worst school experience, hunger, I slept in classroom for one semester because I couldn't afford to pay for accommodation.
During every exams, I always experience near miss accident. When it is time to pay for school charges, my family ll be so broke that feeding ll become a problem. I never buy textbooks because I ll never be able to afford it. During my IT period, I was almost killed by trailer on my way to submit my logbook for signing at ring road Ibadan.
During my 200l I fend for myself for a whole year because my dad had an accident and lost his car when he was struggling to pay my fees. My two younger siblings are secondary school drop outs. They are now in the village learning a skill.
My mum ran away to the village in 2015 when the people she borrowed money from to train us in pay my school fees impounded her shop and everything inside. Ever since then I have been the one fending for myself, I do night shift at a bakery and the humiliation from the bakery boys is unimaginable.
I stopped calling home because if I do my Mum ll tell me to drop out and join her in the village. My once upon a time lovely and beautiful mother is now a firewood seller in the village. The bakery is my home.
The danger of rape by sleeping in the midst of bad boys is there. Stella, is it a crime to wish to be educated. I am in my final year now with less than six months to round up and I have started experiencing worst. Night mares every night, disappointment, unfulfilled promises, Unimaginable hardships .
I really need help on what to do to stop this force that is always hindering my success. Pls forgive any typo error. Its really urgent cos am battling with depression. I reject failure in my life. Amen.
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